It does change your life. I always had dreams to become a nurse. Because of learning disabilities from my head injuries, that dream went down the stream.
I always wonder what my life would turn out if this accident would of never happen. See, nobody would hired me because I have seizures. I don't like myself to much living with Head Trauma's. It did change my personality, my attitude. My mind never slows down, thoughts are always racing and I don't mean to come out with some of the things I say, they just come out before I am to think to say. I ask myself, What is wrong with me that I cannot speak clearly or think the right words in my thoughts but the words come out wrong. I do get frustrated. My daughter tells me all the time that she don't like to have a conversation with me because I am a narcissistic, having personality disorders. I don't found that true about myself of who I am. I feel I have more less low self-esteem than high self-esteem so it does hurt. I am good wearing smile to hide my hurt. If anything, I like to help others and share my story of my life living with TBI. It is not easy at times, many do not understand. I push myself hard to try to do things right, hard on myself if I mess up and make mistakes. Living with TBI, I also live with Dyslexia and have trouble telling time but most of all I have trouble communication skills. I am 57 year's old and because I live with TBI, my children are not so supportive or compassion or have understanding dealing with me. We don't have a strong mother and daughter relationship as they have with their father. My husband is so much smarter than me. He is my strength. I wish I was a little smarter, that way when my daughters use big college words I can understand. It is not where I don't try to learn new things as well determine to learn new words. I look up the words and have to read the definition a few times or more to understand what I am reading. Words in a book or other places looks like to me just a bunch of words. It is a battle I fight with in my head every day. Nobody ever gave me a chance or the opportunity> I worked hard and did everything on my own even if it taken me longer to do. In my children's eyes, for they tell me all the time what they think, I have mental issues and communication problems, very true in the way they say it in their words, cuts deep in the heart. I don't expect nothing from nobody nor do I ask for nothing. Best thing I do, I don't talk much no more. I keep silent.
If I could have one wish and know it would come true, I wish I never had Head Trauma's. It happen and there is nothing I can do to change it so I have to learn to live with it.