I used to be spiritual I’m not anymore because I no longer hallucinate:-) so I don’t believe in things like magic anymore
I used to be artistic books I do not enjoy writing stories or drawing anymore
I most of all Miss where I used to live. I can’t live there anymore because you have to be strong to live there, but it was a place that was warm year-round and I could go for very long exploratory walks. I had nature all around me to do whatever I want with, to sit and enjoy, to be crafty with, to fantasize about
It was a very liberal area. Now I live in a very conservative area with a cold climate where I’m stuck inside a lot of the time.
When I grew up in this cold climate I was strong enough to walk around a ride my bike around but now after my brain injury I can’t handle doing that anymore and it’s driving me crazy to rely on this taxi for rides that takes half an hour to even get here that’s at. For me half an hour can feel like half my day I have little energy SO waiting for a ride can be unbearable because I don’t get to wait in my apartment I have to wait downstairs by the door where I’m very uncomfortable.
I can’t make friends with people vet I enjoy being around anymore. People are just different around here. I’m Different 2 I’m so weak and limited I easily panic I’m usually too tired I can’t understand people for very long. Most of all I need a boyfriend and men who seem interested in me never call me back. I’m dying of boredom and loneliness. I want to be creative and play with people and I can’t find anyone like that. It’s rather like part of me is a child but part of me is like a wise woman I just can’t find what I need and I am very unhappy
I miss when I was independent and I could just go and do something and see something new
Are used to live in community and I loved it because I was around like-minded people. Now that wouldn’t work anymore cuz I need quiet most of the time and to be completely alone.
If I’m magically had good friends to have fun with and to be creative with I think I would be happy but it’s impossible to find these people anymore.
Any advice? I want to find creative fun-loving people who are very kind and who are my age. I’m 32.
I’ve tried making friends with some older people and we’re just not compatible at all.
I used to be around hippies in Hawaii and I felt very compatible with them because they would just work a little bit because they lived very simply and then they had a lot of free time to go for walks and explore the jungle or talk about spiritual things and I’m not into spiritual things anymore I used to love it when I was but I couldn’t go back to Hawaii and be friends with them anymore a lot of them are drug addicts and I don’t want to be around drug addicts.
Where can I find kind creative open-minded people with a lot of time? No where around here that’s for sure. And this small conservative Town everyone is busy with their families or their jobs. I feel like an alien
Sorry I use voice to text and I can’t fix all those typos I’m too tired