I’ve had a few people suggest I write a book… I don’t view myself as a author type but I never view myself as a brain injury type yet here I am XD (it’s a joke uhg)
I don’t think I could write anything made up. I’m not creative anymore. At all. Trust me.
Would anyone here be interested in reading a book that was basically letters between yourself and your brain through recovery?
If I was going to write a book I’d want to write a book for those of us who are tbi survivors for us. Honestly all the books I’ve seen are very… technical and for ethier explaining tbi to non tbi people by someone with tbi or explained by a doctor or whatever. It’s a book by tbi people for non tbi people usually and that didn’t help me when I was starting out.
I know there are books about people’s experience with tbi but that’s not what I would enjoy writing.
I’d want to write something so if a person new to tbi or not new new… because I couldn’t read even after the first year very well…But something so they could relate to it and maybe at some point go hey that point in recovery is something im at. I’m not phrasing it well.
When I was first hurt I would’ve killed for a book by someone with tbi not explaining what might happen or what was happening. But for a book I could recognize myself in, my injury in, in terms I could understand that wasn’t “I’m a dad with kids and a tbi and I work as a college professor these are my challenges for you normal people” (bonus points if you know the book) because I had my own challenges, I didn’t have energy to relate to that and sort out what it meant for me because I’m not a dad with kids that teaches college stuff (narrow mindedness was strong the first years). But a book going “you are going to feel like this probably. You might think that. And that’s normal now. Don’t feel ashamed of it someone else thought stuff like that” would’ve helped some… probably.
I’ll try to do an example:
Today is going to be a mood swing day. Cancel that. This year might be, I haven’t decided yet.
You’re going to feel so irrationally angry you’ll want to punch a wall, instead you’ll yell at everyone and yourself. After that you’ll punch or kick a wall. Then we have to balance that out… With you feeling so, so, so very sad and self loathing the only reason you won’t die today is because you’ll decide to wait 24 hours. Right after that you’ll feel so happy you think you can’t even remember what being sad felt like.
We’ll continue this cycle all day every hour or so.
That is what will happen for now.
Signed, Your Brain”
Why would that seem like a good plan? I’m so raving mad this is happening to me. I don’t understand why this is necessary. Great. Moodswings. Great job. Now I’m too sad to even finish the rant to you. I’ll probably take a nap because life is awful anyway.
Now I’m done taking my nap. I’m in a much better mood now! Im kind of sorry I yelled at you, Brain. But still.
Now I have a migraine so I have to go play the stare at the wall as long as I can until I fall asleep again game.
Thanks a lot.
Hope that kind of made sense. What do you all think? Its probably too abstract to get…idk. Obviously I don’t feel that way now. But I think it’s an example of something relatable early on for some of us.
Just…give me some feed back. Because if it doesn’t make sense or isnt relatable or something any of you would have interest in it probably won’t be for any other tbi people ethier and no point wasting time on writing it then. Ideas are welcome